“What if…”

…wonders the heart and wanders into a dream that will remain just that, a dream.

Would you let it go already? Why did you have to build castles in the air even before things started to take shape? Why were so overly confident that you didn’t even take a minute to think about other possibilities? If you hadn’t done all that, maybe this wouldn’t have come as such a big disappointment.

…retorts the mind.

But…but I was only being optimistic. I just can’t understand why it didn’t work out.

…cries the heart.

It wasn’t meant to be, that’s why. Everything happens for a reason, don’t you know? Something better is waiting just around the corner…so quit being so upset and don’t give up hope yet. I need you with me so we can move on, OK?

…the mind tries to pacify the heart.


…the heart nods. But there’s still that twinge of regret deep somewhere and so, it goes back to wandering and wondering…

What if…


  1. #1 by Psych Babbler on January 14, 2011 - 5:19 pm


    yes, yay! 😀


    • #2 by Psych Babbler on January 14, 2011 - 6:49 pm

      Yay!!! 🙂 It’s been so long since I was first….more than a year maybe?? 😀

      this calls for a celebration then 😀


      • #3 by Matt on August 21, 2012 - 10:45 am

        Congratulations are in order. 😀



  2. #4 by Psych Babbler on January 14, 2011 - 5:20 pm

    It’s like that so often isn’t it? My mind doesn’t let my heart fantasize for fear of being let down or for fear of jinxing things…so very often for me, optimism is missing… 😐

    exactly…but sometimes the heart wins over the mind, goes ahead to dream all that it wants and when it’s finally let down, it’s hard… 😦


  3. #5 by celestialrays on January 14, 2011 - 5:22 pm

    Hugs to the heart and pats on the back to the mind 🙂

    exactly what they need 😀 thank you, they say


  4. #6 by bitsofchocolate on January 14, 2011 - 5:24 pm

    There is a line somewhere that goes “Beware of the dreams that actually come true” – things sometimes come to fruition – but not the way we want. The more welcome converse (things unexpectedly coming together) is sweeter

    But where would dreamers be were it not for “If Only”s 🙂

    so true about the dreamers-“If Only”s part.. 🙂 and yes, things unexpectedly coming together is always always welcome 😀


  5. #7 by comfortablynam on January 14, 2011 - 5:43 pm

    Life lived with ‘what if’. These are so many times when the heart and the mind struggle. Wish they come back in sink soon.

    yupe, happens many times 🙂


  6. #8 by Dazediva on January 14, 2011 - 6:01 pm

    Beautiful. You have an amazing way with words.
    I know that feeling all too well.
    You’ve just inspired me.

    thanks so much for the sweet comment 🙂


  7. #9 by Bikram on January 14, 2011 - 6:38 pm

    Wow you are ona roll here , you dont come then you post almost each day 🙂

    WHAT If 🙂 the biggest question one can ask and for this question we somehow can never find a answer…

    We humans are so silly we keep thinking of WHAT IF and in all tha we miss the moment

    and then we think what if aisa hota or what is that happened and so on ..

    hmmm…sometimes it’s inevitable, i guess 🙂


  8. #10 by anisnest on January 14, 2011 - 7:04 pm

    you have spoken no written about the battle that happens inside every human almost every other day… no individual can deny it… very well written T…

    thank you 🙂


  9. #11 by BlueMist on January 14, 2011 - 9:53 pm

    Arrey Heart needs an ice-cream chocolate wala and it will be alright 😀

    You know heart is like a stubborn kid ; he almost agrees with mind with still grumbles. Hence the big brother mind is good company to shut him up 😛

    There will be new avenues and new reasons to rejoice. Just hang in there.

    😀 chocolate ice cream it is 😀


  10. #12 by Vineeta on January 14, 2011 - 10:06 pm

    So true!! The “what if” is so loud.. we can generally hear anything else 🙂 But I guess that how you connect the dots backward 🙂



  11. #13 by Vishwa on January 14, 2011 - 10:32 pm

    been there…done that!

    who hasn’t 🙂


  12. #14 by Tanishka on January 15, 2011 - 2:01 am

    We all have to deal with our what ifs… But the sooner we learn to deal with what is the better it is for us…. 🙂

    I agree…


  13. #15 by Scribbler on January 15, 2011 - 5:15 am

    just what if this ‘ifs and buts’ debate never comes into the picture 😦 but we are not that lucky to be spared nah ?

    HUGS 🙂



  14. #16 by deviantwave on January 15, 2011 - 8:30 am

    The tussle continues … at times so bad that you can’t sleep and at times acting as a lullaby as they both call intruce and decide to meet again on the other side of dawn! Hugs T!



  15. #17 by Sonia on January 16, 2011 - 3:46 am

    Who said that – Sapney jaroor dekhna par unki poori honey ki shart mat rakhna 🙂

    🙂 i guess that’s the way to be


  16. #18 by Dido on January 16, 2011 - 3:56 am

    No ifss no butss ….Only hugss 😉

    beautifully written T

    thank you!


  17. #19 by Achu on January 16, 2011 - 7:59 am

    so true… almost always end up pacifying the heart that whatever happens is for the good and maybe something better awaits… 😦

    yeah 😦


  18. #20 by Thinking on January 16, 2011 - 10:05 am

    hmm…nice post !



  19. #21 by Krags R on January 17, 2011 - 2:43 pm

    a peaceful soul , relaxed mind and a happy heart – wld be nice to ve all these together 🙂 …

    i sure would like that 😀


  20. #22 by Pixie on January 17, 2011 - 11:41 pm

    hugs – to both the mind and the heart! 🙂

    thanks 🙂


  21. #23 by blommer22 on January 18, 2011 - 1:50 am

    mind forces heart to be ‘in sync’ sometimes. 😦
    mind thinks with logic while heart thinks more than just that.
    mind can go straight ahead while heart…it still looks back somehow.



  22. #24 by DI on January 18, 2011 - 5:14 am

    Awesome post 🙂 And so very apt!



  23. #25 by Nuttie Natters on January 18, 2011 - 12:06 pm

    wow…beautifully written…!!!

    thank you!


  24. #26 by Priya on January 19, 2011 - 12:38 am

    so true… the question pops up many times… and the same reasoning continues to keep us sane. but we can never know what would actually have happened if we had chosen differently!! But still …



  25. #27 by LOI on January 19, 2011 - 12:48 am

    Hugs T lovely post.. we all live with a what if somewhere.. you’ve expressed the conflict very well !!



  26. #28 by ambulisamma on January 19, 2011 - 3:32 am

    Very well laid out,in words and that adds more beauty to it.



  27. #29 by Vidya on January 19, 2011 - 4:37 am

    The conflicts all too familiar- the IFs and BUTs:) That said, the unexpected nice surprise packages always offset the IFs, isn’t it?:)

    true 🙂


  28. #30 by rayshma on January 19, 2011 - 9:22 am

    the eternal battle of the mind and the heart… no matter who wins… that ‘what if..’ lingers…
    nicely written 🙂

    thank you rayshma!


  29. #31 by priyaiyer on January 27, 2011 - 1:27 am

    Beautifully written. Hope you’re feeling better now! 🙂

    yes, much better, thank you 🙂


  30. #32 by Matt on August 21, 2012 - 10:49 am

    A tub of ice cream can cure anything 😀

    but ofcourse!


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